I'm On The Edge... Of Thirty!

top: Boohoo, skirt: Amazon, shoes: Christian Louboutin

cake by: @sliceofheavennyc

Photos by: Ragdoll Films

Turning thirty is a huge milestone, for sure. For many, it's the age whee you are supposed to be an official adult with all your shit together. Women in particular, use thirty as a deadline for everything in their checklist. Mostly, it's expectations imposed to us by society. Get married. Have children. Buy a house. Start using anti-aging products. Blah, blah, blah. We have all these expectations on ourselves and to then get disappointed when they are not done by a certain time.

With my own birthday being days away, I did experience a little bit of anxiety. I was totally having the cliched birthday meltdown. There was a lot of deep thinking and making comparisons to who I am now versus the person the I was expecting to be by now. Then there was the worry about the loss of my youth.  To many people, thirty is "old". Did I waste time in my twenties? There's some things that only twenty-something-year-olds can get away with. At least, according to some people. So was I now expected to look and act a certain way now that I was entering my thirties?

But then, I came to my senses. Who says I have to be a different person? Sure I'm not where I want to be yet but I have come incredibly far. I'm raising a wonderful boy, I'm in the best shape of my life and I'm creating the path to becoming my own boss. A younger me would be proud of the incredible woman that I have become.

So at thirty, you will see me still wearing that mini skirt. I'll be the same Havolin who loves Cheetos and dances like a dweeb. I'll continue my Girls Night Outs. And I'll be wearing that eye cream because I want to--not because I feel like I have to.  I will be having just as much fun in my thirties as I did in my twenties. Even more fun, because I'm not as broke ;). My checklist will have a different set of accomplishments: continuing the pursuit of my happiness, conquering my feels and learning to self-love.

Thirty, Flirty and Thriving!